So I spent $26.50 today on a skirt and a faux fur-tail (yes, a fur-tail; apparently they're "in" this winter... well, I better jump on that bandwagon while I still can!) and it will arrive, freshly shipped from Taiwan, in about 7-10 business days. Right before I made the purchase today, I received my package ($57, spent a month ago) from another retailer located in Hong Kong. I must say, shipping costs a bundle these days. Nonetheless, I keep spending and spending. I'm now waiting for one last package (only $20!) from a retailer located in NY (phew... a bit closer) and hopefully the personal cheque went through with no problems. I actually don't really care if the cheque went through... I don't even really want my items anymore. It was just an impulsive decision, like most of my online shopping sprees. Seriously... I don't even remember what I ordered. That is not good.
I think the worst thing about shopping online, is that you really don't know where your money is going. Who knows if they're just going to take your money and run away the next day? It's so easy to disappear from the internet; just a click of the mouse: "delete" or "change name" or whatever. I've taken that risk 10+ times already and I don't really worry too much over it anymore. But still... the thought of someone taking $60 from me and disappearing just like that...
I think I must've spent over $500 just this summer, on clothes. Not including purchases by direct cash (which was maybe around $150). My debit card is really sad and empty right now. My chequing account currently holds... $2.67.
You might say "Shopaholic!!!!!!!!"
and you would be right. I think I need some rehab. Please oh please take away my bank card for a few weeks. I have no source of income at the moment, especially since I only work once a week now (umm, $40/week); I didn't even work last week because of some stupid student council event!
What can I do?
When I'm not doing homework, or not sleeping, all I do is browse the internet and online stores/retailers! It's so annoying! I can't even help myself, I just find myself scrolling down a page full of "great deals!" and "sale!" and "only $25! so cheap!" and I think to myself, "Oh God, I need to get that right away!"
So I transferred $26.50 to the retailer about an hour ago... I don't really even want my items anymore. Like usual. I felt so happy for 5 minutes... and then everything went back to normal again, like "pffffffffft".
Maybe when I receive all my items, I'll feel happy again. Right now, it's like it never happened. All that changed is the amount of money in my bank. And that... I'm not too happy about. I want to be rich one day. Take Business major. Start a business. Be successful. Marry well. BECOME RICHHHH.
Okay, that was one of the longest confession I've ever written on this blog. But it is a confession. Hopefully I reached out to all of you shopaholics out there, who are just trying to find your way through the world-- Wait, wtf am I saying? I LIKE TO SHOP. I CAN'T HELP MYSELF. SHOPPING MAKES ME A BIT HAPPIER. EVEN WHEN I BECOME BROKEASS. LIKE NOW. I NEED HELP... NO... I NEED MORE MONEY.
(weird outfits lately... not feeling very well. I didn't even eat dinner today because I needed a nap. I didn't eat lunch today because I was too sleepy to be hungry. I slept in my spare, and slept in my Psych class. I only got 3 hours of sleep last night... and last last night. Shitloads of homework to be done... and I'm online shopping.)
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